Om shanti

I've been pretty unhappy with the way my clown business is going, and I am stressed out at work so I have been devoting all my free time to my yoga practice. I can't deal with anything right now. I think I am headed for a major spiritual crisis if I don't find a path that works for me pretty soon. I keep looking for joy outside myself, but I am starting to realize it must come from within. But what if my within is empty?

Mistakes were made.

Well, that didn't go so good. When I got to my cousin's, I was in full clown costume and I had my Spin Art all ready to go. Wouldn't you know it, 4 of the kids were extremely scared of clowns! It was a giant cry-fest for like 3 hours. I have never seen so much screaming and pants-peeing in my life. There I was, honking my little horn and trying to get the kids' faces painted, and every few minutes another little kid would go shrieking off to find their mothers. It was a catastrophe!

I guess my question would be, how do I ease kids into clownage? Because I am not giving up on this dream!

Also, I found an angry clown who could use some help. I need to cheer him up!

I still haven't found a good name yet, so I have been using Lulu the Lighthearted Clown. I think it pretty much sucks as a name.

I did practice some balloon animals, and here is one of my successes:


Keep your fingers crossed for my new career!

I have decided to clown around.

... Ha Ha! Let me explain. I was reading the other day about some clowns and how much fun it is to have a side career of working birthday parties. I realized there's not too many Asian clowns, and I don't know of any that are Viet Namese.

I'm going to the costume shop today and getting some basic supplies. If they are open, I don't know. I am going to practice face painting on some old pillowcases I have. Then I am going to the library to get some books on clown skills, because I don't have any. Here are the things I could do already, in my act:

• Face painting (if the pillowcases work out)
• Spin Art
• making funny gestures
• doing a silly voice
• balloons (regular ones, I can't do animals yet)

As you can see, there is room for growth!

You might be wondering why this sudden interest in clowns! Well, I heard about a local clown named "Looney Dooney" on the radio and supposedly he was a huge hit at this festival. I know that in a week I have to go to my cousin's little baby's birthday party (she is 3) and not only can't I think of a present, but also I want to bring something fun to the party.

Why not bring me, as a clown?

Now I just need some names. Help me out will ya?

Some ideas:

• Tuyet the clown
• White Phoenix the clown
• the Viet Namese clown
• Yellow Flower Clown
• Herro, I am a Crown
• Danh Tu
• Silly Sally
• Sirry Sarry

Wow, I can't think of anything good. Help a sister out, yo! (That's slang)

I'll let you know how it goes... I am starting to feel not so excited about this idea anymore.